Joy in My Heart

Life, lately, has thrown me a few curve balls that I've been so keen to hit out of the park, but continually strike out. Time and time again I stand ready to face whatever the world is willing to throw my way: Chinese Throwing Stars, Lemons and if I'm lucky, Cookie Dough. Chinese Throwing Stars have started to fill my wall up, and I swear I smell a little more citrus everywhere I go.

Sometimes all I need, like any other person, is a little human intimacy. Not what you're probably thinking though. Maybe intimacy isn't the right word to use...compassion. There, that's it. I crave human compassion, but I do not throw my feelings to the wolves hoping for someone to save me. My silent cries for interaction are apparent, but most times overlooked. Attention seeking, verbally, has never been my way of working, unless it's toward Miguel. He needs all the hints he can get. ;)

Yesterday, I made up my mind to put my life back on track. On track with my happiness. True happiness has been locked up and rarely seeks me out. A whole new mind wardrobe is what I needed, craved. Time to put my clunky sweaters and baggy jeans away and pull out those summer dresses, scarves, cute shoes and accessories.

A wise friend of mine told me "It's just as easy to put on an cute outfit as it is to put on an ugly on. You always feel better when you look your best." I'm trying to apply this not only to my outward appearance, but to my outlook on life. (Thank you, Sara Blue Star).

With that said, fellow bloggers who may have happened to glance this far down the post, if you see someone who is in desperate need of human intimacy/compassion, don't hesitate to fill their glass with hope. I'm sure not only will they appreciate, you will as well. We all need a little support system everywhere we go. You never know, you could help change an outlook on life.

My affirmation for when my heart is heavy: "I choose love, joy and freedom, open my heart and allow wonderful things to flow into my life."
If you don't know how these work, wake up every morning and say this, confidently, until you believe every single word. Continue to do so, everyday, until your heart is not heavy and your mind wardrobe is full of clothes that make you feel your best.