I love my little family. It's amazing how much I love them, but right now, I feel so unaccomplished. Remember I just went from working a full time job and going to school at night every day of the week and clinics on the weekends for almost 9 months. I don't know how to just not do anything, or barely anything.
Yes, I did give birth 20 days ago, and yes, I know I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself. No, I don't need anyone telling me that I need to slow down and remember that I just gave birth. Sorry, I just know what I can and cannot do, and I cannot just sit here and twiddle my thumbs day in and day out.
Okay, that's a lie. I could sit here and twiddle my thumbs day in and day out. I don't have a problem doing so.
I just need to feel like my "friends" actually gave two cents about me!* I made some great friends over the past year, but you want to know something, I have a handful, yes a handful, of friends who have actually a) come to visit me or b) check up on me at least once a week. So, my so called friends who miss me and love me so dearly, where are you? Why is it that it gets put on my shoulders to check up on you when I'm the one who just had a baby? Just because I'm a mom doesn't mean our relationship has changed. I'm seriously considering who my real friends are. I've come to find out that I don't have very many who actually care.
*Now, there are quite a few friends of mine that do check up on me. I'm not talking about you in the previous paragraph. I truly appreciate your friendship and you checking up on us! It brings a smile to my face to know that, man, someone actually cares enough to take 2 minutes out of their day to send me a text or message me on FB. Honestly, I don't know what I'd do without the few of you who actually do that. So, thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. <3
It's okay to vent.
It's okay to call.
It's okay to visit.
It's okay to take me out of the house while I have someone who is more than willing to watch Brielle for me.
It's not like I, Ambria, have disappeared...
Or have I? o.0
